I Blinked And They Grew Up

never in my pre-kids life did i imagine i would have 3 kids, or any kids, let alone twins. i believe the universe has its way of helping you find your way back to yourself if you allow it, and these girls have been a massive part of this journey.…

Tuesday Meditation houghts

over the past couple years, i've made a very conscious shift. social notifications have remained off. i share less, and only share things that feel real or meaningful or valuable or fun, with love. no unnecessary dopamine bumps or anxiety or annoyances from things that do not serve me. i…

Tuesday Thoughts

eric and i were running with dawn earlier today, talking about random events of the day, and work, etc. "i'm so hungry, where should we go for dinner?" and then i thought, "ugh, that means shower, and drying my hair, and makeup and all the minutia of venturing out into…

End of an Era <3

it's hard to put into words how much running OpenSOC has meant over the years. but i'm gonna try. i'll spare the repetitiveness--a brief summary of what OpenSOC is, if you're unfamiliar, is above. but it has become so much more than that. what started as Eric's brainchild years ago,…

Generational Trauma and Body Image

i took the girls to gymnastics this morning, and on our way out, i overheard a guy talking to his daughter when she finished class. he pulled her aside while she was getting her shoes and jacket back on, and her mom was a couple chairs away, watching the whole…

Is Your Grub Hosed?

somehow, 3 instances (that are untouched outside of packages being installed) had the wrong root PARTUUID in grub, and when they were rebooted for an instance size change, they would not boot and dropped to a shell. how fun.…

Repairing A Corrupted vCenter PostgreSQL DB

the fun of running a lab also comes with the fun of troubleshooting things you wouldn't otherwise have to troubleshoot in a properly managed/replicated/backed up environment. like figuring out how a database within vcenter that you didn't even know about got corrupted during a power failure and how…

new years thoughts

this was taken the morning of day 1 of quarantine, march 2020. it feels like i blinked. i remember those early pandemic days. 2-3 hour shifts of work/kids/chaos. i remember thinking how much harder everything was about to get. and ohhh, it did. it definitely did. but discomfort…