2025

a year to remember... for sure.<3 i know i'm late again with the new year's post. i don't know how i wrote so much so often years ago, but i'm glad i did. and i need to do it more. it always ends up being a release, whether it's through the words themselves or the tears that inevitably flow when i'm writing. like now. i have a teenager now--what is life? the twins turn 9 soon--what is life? i miss my little babies so much, but i adore my 3 besties. i am constantly overwhelmed with gratitud…

2024

i have been wanting to write this for weeks but never carved out the time, and it's been a draft for at least 2 now. if there's one thing i've learned in the last few years, forcing the time or the words to happen never works. i have to wait…

Rest in Peace, Thor

after almost 17 years and one hell of a life, thor passed away monday morning. i haven't cried this much since my loki died. loki basically raised thor from the day i got him. he was a 7 week old furball of skin and bones, and i saved his life.…

I Blinked And They Grew Up

never in my pre-kids life did i imagine i would have 3 kids, or any kids, let alone twins. i believe the universe has its way of helping you find your way back to yourself if you allow it, and these girls have been a massive part of this journey.…

Tuesday Meditation houghts

over the past couple years, i've made a very conscious shift. social notifications have remained off. i share less, and only share things that feel real or meaningful or valuable or fun, with love. no unnecessary dopamine bumps or anxiety or annoyances from things that do not serve me. i…

End of an Era, Again

first drink in 2 weeks is a (big) glass of wine to celebrate the end of an era 🥹🍷💙 it was me and Eric's last official day at Recon today, and next week we begin our new adventure with LimaCharlie. not goodbye for us and Recon, as we'll always have ties…

Tuesday Thoughts

eric and i were running with dawn earlier today, talking about random events of the day, and work, etc. "i'm so hungry, where should we go for dinner?" and then i thought, "ugh, that means shower, and drying my hair, and makeup and all the minutia of venturing out into…

End of an Era <3

it's hard to put into words how much running OpenSOC has meant over the years. but i'm gonna try. i'll spare the repetitiveness--a brief summary of what OpenSOC is, if you're unfamiliar, is above. but it has become so much more than that. what started as Eric's brainchild years ago,…