it's not often that i come to las vegas and meditate. i had never done it, in fact, until today. today is day 2, or 3 i guess technically, of DEF CON. day 2 of OpenSOC. eric and i sat outside this morning with Rapéh. we meant to yesterday…

we're driving from SC to TX this week. last night we stopped in mississippi at an adorable RV park. we're heading to dallas today to visit our friend matt, and then back to austin tomorrow. flying out to las vegas on thursday for DEF CON.…

eric and i sat down to meditate this morning--something we had both neglected for too long. if you're unfamiliar with Rapéh, here is a brief intro: The Rapéh (pronounced “Ha-peh”) snuff is a sacred and legal herbal snuff from the…

in my last post, i described a pretty powerful experience i had. this is kind of a continuation of that thread--just a handful of months down the road. recently, i was in a similar place. this time, i went into the meditation with specific…

curl -XGET localhost:9200/_cluster/allocation/explain?pretty if you're at all familiar with the elastic stack, you may recognize this query. if you've ever run into a situation where your elasticsearch cluster turns yellow (or worse, red),…

i started out down this rabbithole thinking i'd be able to pick a couple pictures per month. and i was so wrong. i quickly realized that there are more amazing memories with my girls than i can fit in a single post. i am so thankful for…

today was the 2nd of 2 days of running OpenSOC at Grayhat. our event went off incredibly smoothly, we had a great turnout, and everyone seemed to have an awesome time, with minimal stress. success all around. i've had solid workouts every…

this year has been... a decade. even longer for those less fortunate. so much has happened, and while i hate seeing what's going on in our world and in our country, crises everywhere, i am grateful for a lot of things in my life. i haven't…

october and november hit, and mental health becomes a dumpster fire.

christmas cards done christmas shopping nearly done actually got weekend dinners prepped last night😱a miracle, lately but i haven't even gotten a chance to put away halloween and put out thanksgiving/fall decorations. trying to keep track…

last update was january, and it hurt going through 9 months of pictures seeing how much littler they were only a short while ago :( twins turned 2 in march: no more pacifiers, full mouths of teeth, speaking in sentences, and can just about…

have had to take a step back lately... i hit a new low in 2018. stress, hormones, winter, chaos of 3 kids, major career changes, anxiety, depression. everyone says twins are hard, what no one tells you about is the toll it all takes…

caylin showers nightly on her own, picks out her own clothes, dresses herself, puts her dishes in the sink, packs her backpack, picks out her breakfast, can bring her sisters stuff (bottles, pacifiers, etc), plays with them in the…

oh man. so many things have happened in the last few months. last post was caylin's 6th birthday. the twins are loving daycare now. they come home completely exhausted, yes. but they love the people there. they're sick all the time, like…

brett's parents came to visit friday-sun. everyone went out on the boat saturday, so i got to spend saturday with the babies :) went to a get together for ashley's birthday saturday night. came home and cooked eggs and sausage at like…

i feel like a terrible mom comparing kiddo #1 to the twins. i blogged every month. that is just so hard to keep up these days. so hard. zoey and ella have 6 teeth now. ella is walking, kind of. she can take 4-5 steps. zoey can take 1-2.…

3 weeks late. better late than never. 3 kids and everything going on these days has put blogging on the backiest back burner. it kind of makes me sad, but it means that life is full. the twins turned 1 on 5/31. caylin graduated…

the twins turn 1 at the end of this month. i was so diligent about writing monthly when caylin was younger. then again, i had about 9000 fewer things to worry about. that said, i still feel bad about not doing the monthlies. there are…

the twins turned 10 months old this weekend, and caylin is 5 and a half. it's hard to believe that so much time has passed already. they're not crawling yet, but there's a lot of rolling around and scooching. ella is a lot more mobile than…

thanks again to the incredible people over at @ubnt , i have some new additions to the home network. if you didn’t see the first post, you can read more here . basically, earlier this year i rebuilt all the things for the home network/lab…

i had to make a really hard decision last week. tl;dr – i have decided to leave red hat and go back to booz allen / SPARC. when i took my position at red hat 6 months ago, i had never worked from home full time before. i also knew that…

that’s what the last 7 months feel like, at times. especially day to day. a normal day goes like this: wake up around 6:30-7. caylin is more often than not, the first one up. the babies are usually stirring or babbling before or around…

[UPDATE] posted here [/UPDATE] a few months ago, i started realizing i was going to need to make some changes with regards to my infrastructure at home in general. we had a decent ASUS router at home and i set up a VPN, and i had a couple…

my 10 year goal. roughly 6-7 years in the making since my first red hat certification. because time, money, kids, work, etc. in september 2007, i visited red hat with our AITP chapter from app. several of my friends already had their eyes…

4 months later, and i’m finally getting around to… semi blogging? i don’t know how this will go. it’s 1:30 in the morning and i’m looking for every opportunity to distract myself from studying. christmas was pretty low key. dad and…