Long Talks

i've touched on this a lot across several posts, but never addressed it directly. i've made a lot of changes over the last year, year and a half, regarding self care. i cut out red meat. i cut out alcohol almost entirely. i cut out my diet coke. i swapped…

Opportunities

friday night thoughts 🤍🙏 ... you are enough let go and love ... i sat down to meditate tonight. it's been 2-3 days because 1) i ran out of rapeh, and 2) i've been filling my days and not setting aside time to just sit, regardless, between work and life. and i should…

Remember This Day

caylin turns 9 tomorrow. i still can't wrap my head around it. she was a baby a month ago. i am so unbelievably proud of this girl. she is such a bright light. such a sweet, kind soul, and an amazing big sister. we woke up around 6, or they…

Be A Kid

i sat down to meditate tonight, and i always get emotional around my girls' birthdays. tonight was no different. we're celebrating big sister's birthday tomorrow, and i've been prepping since thursday night. but when i sat down and listened tonight, i realized that more than anything, i need to JOIN…

Just Stop

i sat down to meditate tonight, and my head was inundated with thoughts. for whatever reason, i couldn't focus. i couldn't let go. i couldn't just SIT. i couldn't help but notice my mind creating a backlog of to-do's, even a few minutes in. i had to constantly tell myself…

Present

as much as i love having my girls home with me, and as much as i miss the chaos and being surrounded by their little voices, i'm reminded this week how important time with myself is. i woke up at 6, got them ready, took them all to school, came…

s/single-point-of-failure/room-for-improvement

today was pretty rough. today was a stark reminder that i've been the single point of failure in too many places for too long. not just work, but in my own life. we've been taking steps to alleviate that at work, but today the internet went down hard. for half…

Deep Breaths, You're Doing A Good Job

the twins go back to daycare next week. big sister just started her first week of 4th grade. it won't be a full house every day after this week. and despite the chaos of trying to work and mom, i know i will miss it so so much. i was…