Generational Trauma and Body Image

i took the girls to gymnastics this morning, and on our way out, i overheard a guy talking to his daughter when she finished class. he pulled her aside while she was getting her shoes and jacket back on, and her mom was a couple chairs away, watching the whole…

Is Your Grub Hosed?

somehow, 3 instances (that are untouched outside of packages being installed) had the wrong root PARTUUID in grub, and when they were rebooted for an instance size change, they would not boot and dropped to a shell. how fun.…

Repairing A Corrupted vCenter PostgreSQL DB

the fun of running a lab also comes with the fun of troubleshooting things you wouldn't otherwise have to troubleshoot in a properly managed/replicated/backed up environment. like figuring out how a database within vcenter that you didn't even know about got corrupted during a power failure and how…

new years thoughts

this was taken the morning of day 1 of quarantine, march 2020. it feels like i blinked. i remember those early pandemic days. 2-3 hour shifts of work/kids/chaos. i remember thinking how much harder everything was about to get. and ohhh, it did. it definitely did. but discomfort…

Long Talks

i've touched on this a lot across several posts, but never addressed it directly. i've made a lot of changes over the last year, year and a half, regarding self care. i cut out red meat. i cut out alcohol almost entirely. i cut out my diet coke. i swapped…

Opportunities

friday night thoughts 🤍🙏 ... you are enough let go and love ... i sat down to meditate tonight. it's been 2-3 days because 1) i ran out of rapeh, and 2) i've been filling my days and not setting aside time to just sit, regardless, between work and life. and i should…

Remember This Day

caylin turns 9 tomorrow. i still can't wrap my head around it. she was a baby a month ago. i am so unbelievably proud of this girl. she is such a bright light. such a sweet, kind soul, and an amazing big sister. we woke up around 6, or they…

Be A Kid

i sat down to meditate tonight, and i always get emotional around my girls' birthdays. tonight was no different. we're celebrating big sister's birthday tomorrow, and i've been prepping since thursday night. but when i sat down and listened tonight, i realized that more than anything, i need to JOIN…