learning to show myself grace

in my last post, i described a pretty powerful experience i had. this is kind of a continuation of that thread--just a handful of months down the road. recently, i was in a similar place. this time, i went into the meditation with specific intentions, though, unlike the last time.…

Unassigned Shards

curl -XGET localhost:9200/_cluster/allocation/explain?pretty if you're at all familiar with the elastic stack, you may recognize this query. if you've ever run into a situation where your elasticsearch cluster turns yellow (or worse, red), and you see the dreaded "Unassigned Shards" flashing before your eyes, you…

A Year In Pictures

i started out down this rabbithole thinking i'd be able to pick a couple pictures per month. and i was so wrong. i quickly realized that there are more amazing memories with my girls than i can fit in a single post. i am so thankful for these 3--going through…

Life is Good

today was the 2nd of 2 days of running OpenSOC at Grayhat. our event went off incredibly smoothly, we had a great turnout, and everyone seemed to have an awesome time, with minimal stress. success all around. i've had solid workouts every day this week, which has helped immensely lately.…

2020

this year has been... a decade. even longer for those less fortunate. so much has happened, and while i hate seeing what's going on in our world and in our country, crises everywhere, i am grateful for a lot of things in my life. i haven't written in nearly a…

Juggling 24/7

* christmas cards done * christmas shopping nearly done * actually got weekend dinners prepped last nightšŸ˜±a miracle, lately but i haven't even gotten a chance to put away halloween and put out thanksgiving/fall decorations. trying to keep track of kid's school things and gymnastics/meets and appointments and pictures and…

2019 So Far

last update was january, and it hurt going through 9 months of pictures seeing how much littler they were only a short while ago :( twins turned 2 in march: no more pacifiers, full mouths of teeth, speaking in sentences, and can just about dress themselves now... they fight half the…