butterflies

i am so nervous about this week. adam’s last deployment was 4 months, and it was weird seeing him again…more shocking than anything. i can’t imagine what it’s going to be like after 6. i know nothin’s changed between us… i can tell by our…

so sad

i just found out a friend of mine from freshman year died in a car wreck in wyoming. i passed 2 huuuuge wrecks on the way home last night, those 5 girls in new york, what the hell is going on around here? yesterday marked 8 months since corey’s…

5 days until i can drink legally

it’s about damn time. europe was kind of a tease… like, you can drink for 3 weeks but then when you get back to the states you’re gonna have to just bribe your friends to buy it for you again. ha! now i can go to the bar…

too late to say "don't get your hopes up"

i got online this morning and checked facebook and i had a message from adam. all it said was, “so what if i told you i was coming home in 2 weeks?” that’s it. what a shithead! i’m sure he knows how much i freaked out after reading…

florida...?

my lovely roommate has the hookup on disney vacations. apparently… apparently, my friends have been plotting a trip down there since i’ve been gone. this trip starts on the 23rd in florida and then we’re supposed to leave florida on the 27th, come back to boone, and then…

back to reality

my stuff is all unpacked, my bed is re-made, loki is settled in, and everything is back to “normal”. being home now is bittersweet. i can’t really explain it. i’m so confused as to how i got so attached to the friends i made over there. it’s…

nails on a chalkboard

i had fillings today at the dentist, and the whole time it felt like nails on a chalkboard sending chills down my spine. i’m still shaking because of that feeling. gross. the whole left side of my face is numb plus my nose, so i’m hoping i’ll…

strugglin'

i feel like craaap. stomach hurts, head is all congested, cramps, chills, but it doesn’t feel like i have a fever. i was already sick in norway… why must i get sick again? at least the sore throat went away. adam, i’m really glad i got to talk…