deep thoughts

the next few weekends are going to be absolutely amazing. this weekend my dad and christine are coming up to visit for brunch. JD is coming from out of town and is probably crashing in our living room and laura and i are hosting another game night saturday night after the football game. it’s been a while since we’ve done that! perhaps too long. once again, our apartment will be full of nerds. :smile:

next weekend, derrick, jb, robert (maybe), and ryan are all coming from out of town. i don’t know who else is coming but it’ll be a full house. ryan will be replenishing my moonshine supply… and i will get to see everyone again finally. it’s hard to believe that last semester, i was with this group of people nearly every night. now they all live in different cities with real jobs. what kind of crap is that?

the following weekend… well, something fun will probably happen. but the important thing is the weekend after that is AppalachLAN VII!!!!! i’m nervous because i have responsibilities this year. big ones. and… i don’t want to screw anything up. so today, i did a lot of thinking and planning and hopefully between RedBull and my sponsor-searching today, we’ll pull off another successful LAN party. i am so excited! i will make rob and phil and JB proud, for sure.

it’s 1:30 in the morning and i’m not the least bit tired. my dinner consisted of a hot pocket and chocolate milk whilst playing poker in IRC. all the apartments around me are partying like crazy and i don’t even feel like going out. i’m in a really mellow mood lately and i’m not sure why. i think i’ve been thinking too much about life in general and i would just like to turn my brain off for a while. i think i’ve just been missing my friends and adam and i wish it was this summer again when i was with ALL of them. i want to take all my friends from king/winston/raleigh/greensboro/charlotte/bragg/lejeune/ohio/sweden/everywhere and mash them all into boone and let us all be one big happy family. adam can come too. :up: that… that would be incredible. for now, i guess it’s just going to be a lot of gas money and driving and patience and wondering who will end up where next. life is so weird.

Growing up is never easy. You hold on to things that were. You wonder what’s to come. But that night, I think we knew it was time to let go of what had been, and look ahead to what would be. Other days. New days. Days to come. The thing is, we didn’t have to hate each other for getting older. We just had to forgive ourselves…for growing up. -The Wonder Years

so much has changed just being in college and sometimes i wonder where i will be in 6 months, a year, 2 years. it scares the shit out of me. i apologize for the emo-ness of this post, but bon jovi and caffeine have me awake with the wheels turning in my head.