When Questioned About Goals

last week at work, we were all given a worksheet to fill out with our goals on it to go over with our team leads. family goals, lifestyle goals, work goals, technical goals–pretty much anything.

and then it dawned on me. for the first time in my life, i have no goals. well, none other than getting this baby out of me in the next 6 months.

something that (i feel like) should be such a relief… suddenly hit me like a ton of bricks.

when i was younger, these were the goals i set for myself:

  • go to college
  • graduate from college with a computer degree
  • get my RHCE and keep climbing the red hat ladder
  • get a job where i get to be a happy nerd
  • marry my best friend
  • if all goes right, make babies, later… much later

besides the fact that the whole baby thing came a BIT earlier than expected, whatever.

i’ve done everything i set out to accomplish. and 3 of them happened within the last 6 months.

before august, i was still on the road that i was slowly figuring out for myself. i knew brett and i were getting married, but it was (originally) over a year away. i was in a job that i hated, so i had something to pursue in that regard. i wanted out, and that was something i could make happen.

but it all happened so fast that i haven’t really had time to think about what else i want to do in my life.

i guess this is one of those awesome moments where i should be totally elated that i have accomplished all that i set out to do, but at the same time it leaves me with the question hanging over my head like… now what?

i’m scheduled to take a red hat security exam in june, which will start paving the way towards the RHCA that i’ve had my eye on since i finally tackled the RHCE. but now i don’t even know how doable all that will be once i become a mom with an undoubtedly much more strict budget.

realistically, i will have to push all that out a ways. so realistically, here are my next set of goals for the next… however long it takes to get there:

  • take the red hat security exam in june
  • have this baby
  • move into a house as soon as we’re financially able
  • learn to raise said baby

not knowing what comes with having a baby, i’m pretty sure this list is all that i’ll be able to handle for a while.