Cap & Gown Already?

everyone has been carrying around bags from the bookstore this week. you know what’s in those bags? a cap, gown, and graduation invitations. o_0

nothing scares the crap out of me more than the thought of graduation. that probably sounds ridiculous because i already have a job lined up and i’m not moving too terribly far from home and WHO DOESN’T WANT TO STAY IN COLLEGE FOR 5 YEARS?

it scares the crap out of me for a few reasons…

  • i will trip when i walk on graduation day
  • i willcry SOB on graduation day
  • i’ve never lived more than 2 hours away from home so moving 5 hours away is enough to get me nerved up
  • i’ll be living in a big city (by big, i mean bigger than the whopping 5 square miles of boone, north carolina) by myself
  • there are probably more reasons but it’s 4 AM and i can’t think of them right now

don’t get me wrong–i’m excited about my new job. i’m excited about a salary and being independent (although i bet my dad will continue to be my financial advisor for the next 100 years and i will still have to call my mom in the morning to be my 8th alarm clock). i’m excited about finally doing my OWN thing and making something of myself.

mostly i’m gonna miss the crap out of boone. and my friends. and raley hall. and the CIS department AKA my extended family. i’ll be surprised if i don’t at least make an attempt to come back every month. at that point, someone find the link to this entry and e-mail it to future me to remind me of the best 5 years of my life. :depressed: seriously. i’m in love with this place.