today was another day of chaos, and here i am at the end of the day, reflecting on what i could've or should've done differently. ... embrace the chaos keep showing up just show them love you are enough ... this has been repeating in my head since i sat down to…
today wasn't perfect--there were a lot of timeouts, and there was a lot of frustration between the tantrums and work and the chaos. we meditated together this morning--for the first time, my girls joined me. there were tears of joy (mine), and all the goosebumps (also mine). it meant so…
it's not often that i come to las vegas and meditate. i had never done it, in fact, until today. today is day 2, or 3 i guess technically, of DEF CON. day 2 of OpenSOC. eric and i sat outside this morning with Rapéh. we meant to yesterday but…
we're driving from SC to TX this week. last night we stopped in mississippi at an adorable RV park. we're heading to dallas today to visit our friend matt, and then back to austin tomorrow. flying out to las vegas on thursday for DEF CON. eric has been staying at…
eric and i sat down to meditate this morning--something we had both neglected for too long. if you're unfamiliar with Rapéh, here is a brief intro: The Rapéh (pronounced “Ha-peh”) snuff is a sacred and legal herbal snuff from the indigenous peoples of the forest. It is said to heighten…
in my last post, i described a pretty powerful experience i had. this is kind of a continuation of that thread--just a handful of months down the road. recently, i was in a similar place. this time, i went into the meditation with specific intentions, though, unlike the last time.…
curl -XGET localhost:9200/_cluster/allocation/explain?pretty if you're at all familiar with the elastic stack, you may recognize this query. if you've ever run into a situation where your elasticsearch cluster turns yellow (or worse, red), and you see the dreaded "Unassigned Shards" flashing before your eyes, you…
i started out down this rabbithole thinking i'd be able to pick a couple pictures per month. and i was so wrong. i quickly realized that there are more amazing memories with my girls than i can fit in a single post. i am so thankful for these 3--going through…