Anxiety, Self-Image, Personal Growth

i have always struggled with anxiety, self-image, self-consciousness, self-esteem… the whole nine yards. i’m pretty sure most women do to some extent, in at least one of those areas. it can be crippling and frustrating. and it is absolutely a waste of time. i don’t say this because…

11 Months, And Exhausted

i hate that i’ve only been posting once a month lately. i have allowed myself almost no down time in the last few weeks. i have stayed up past 3 AM more times in the last month than i have in the last like 2 years combined, at least.…

In My "Spare" Time

aka when i can get caylin to pass out for more than an hour without being in my lap… i’ve been working on another android app. i was going to keep it to myself but then it’s not as exciting. exciting in the sense that it’s exiting…

A Few Highlights From Defcon 19

in no particular order :) all external links open in new window, images open in colorbox. * making the best of the epic badge line with camelbaks o’ beer * finally GETTING my defcon badge * dan kaminsky’s talk * sizzling apple pie at the rio’s all american bar & grille * acquiring my first…

Defcon Vegas Bike Adventure!

![dc19](/content/images/2011/06/dc19.png "dc19")last week, brett and i finally booked our flight/hotel for [defcon 19](http://defcon.org). this will be my 3rd year, his 2nd. definitely looking forward to this every summer now. i was looking at the speakers/contests for this year…

There Are No Words

let me start out by saying that… my weirdness is not random. at all. my mom is weird. my dad is weird. my weirdness was, unavoidably, inherited. and i can never thank my parents enough. HOWEVER, they still catch me off guard from time to time. i received an e-mail…

Defcon 2009

defcon was freaking amazing. i made a lot of new friends, was wined and dined by goons and geeks, even got handcuffed (and learned how to get out of them). my eyes seriously welled up when i hugged everyone goodbye and got in my cab to the airport. :cry: one…